I haven’t seen you for the past three years…when I left i was still the immature, hard-headed Vennis na walang ginawa kundi pasakitin ang ulo mo. Good riddance diba? Parang “Good umalis na ang loka-loka mabubuhay na uli ako ng tahimik”. But when I came back you were still there, you welcomed me back into your life and took me into your heart again. Then, I left again without even the decency of saying goodbye.
After a year of leaving you for the second time, I heard na umalis ka rin daw… that you wanted to move on and forget me. I felt a little stab of pain in my heart… alam ko I never gave you even a quarter of what you gave to me… I was a poor investment for your love… But you still gave it all that you’ve got. I know I’ve hurt you and I was never the kind to say sorry even if I were wrong.
I came back, got on with my life…fell in and out of love…I’ve forgotten you.
Then, after three years, you’re here again… I never expected seeing you again. Tumaba ka. Di na ikaw ang patpating matangkad na nakilala ko noong college, na palaging may hawak na gitara at kumakanta ng mga kanta ng BREAD pag magkatabi tayo. You’ve changed. Nagkamasel na ang payat na braso mo, lalo kang tumangkad at lalong gumanda ang ngiti mo na siya kong unang napansin noong college nang nakipagkilala ako sayo (yes ako ang lumapit at nakipagkilala sa kanya noon!).
Kung alam ko lang na nandito ka na at kakain ka ng pizza sa Greenwich kahapon (wala kasing ibang pizza shop dito sa Tagum), di na sana ako kumain dun. Kung alam ko lang na makikiupo ka sa mesa ko, sana di nko nag dine-in dun. I never expected seeing you again, nor did I expect to be close to you again. Gosh! After all these years bigla mong winindang ang puso ko. And I shouldn’t be feeling this anymore, I should never feel anything about you anymore.
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